Electrical pulses confusing the dead inside, Earthly contracts make me run and hide. No touch ever exchanged yet dangerously entangled is my soul.
As my eyes crack open, I pull the sheet up over my head paralyzed by plaguing thoughts of a face not seen in years, now not seen in months. I smile as tears fall simultaneously, my mien changing in the blink of a tear filled eye, only wishing to please and wanting to be pleased…you know that scream that starts from a place you’ve never been, from deep within that you don’t let out?
I only crave to hold your skull in my hands, feeling your bristles with feather like fingertips…your exhale warming my neck, creating jealousy amongst my lips…inhales consuming the scent that’s been longed for, for what seems like eternity. Words like daggers I won’t hear, feeling only your energies…seeing, feeling depths never known this trip around.
I carry this ferocious itch that changes me daily, controlling chaos becomes more difficult by the passing days. Promise me with only your eyes, as long as I breathe I can live only here.